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[February 09, 2011] |
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Looking back so much events have zoomed past and we're into the second month of year 2011.
Into my first full-time job since last year, and I have tried so many firsts ever since I graduated with my diploma in tourism.
First time working full-time and upholding responsibilities, trying to be a role model and be the salt and the light, and learning so much.
First time giving private tuition to my P3 kid and I loved it, though it had been a challenge physically and mentally.
First time getting my driver's license - passed on second attempt.
First time volunteering at an animal shelter.
First time learning the guitar.
First time running a marathon and completing it in 7 hours, but not without sunburns, toenails dropping and aching legs.
First time backpacking, which is my ultimate dream. Incredibly pleasant surprise! And may I add random.
More firsts to come! Living with a purpose in life comes challenging, yet fulfilling.
It hasn't been easy trying to balance life with work, home, service and other commitments and I am really hoping that the Lord will guide me throughout tough periods, where I have to walk out of a comfort zone and deal with situations that happen everyday. It will be a constant challenge at work, as well as at home.
Thank God for always being my mountain, even when I am not obedient, He is always around, He makes me learn more everyday and I grow and aspire to be a much better person. Thank God for family and lovely friends as well as brothers and sisters-in-Christ. Thank God for making me err, so I learn from them all with an open heart and a mind to make it better the next time round. Thank God for the reminder on Love, so that I can bring it to people around me, especially to those whom may not be the closest ones to me but in all circumstances/people God places me in/with, that I may serve to encourage, bring joy and testify as a child of God.
Hoping that I will always be able to attain what I preach - to keep the faith, to be my utmost for His highest. God Bless!
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I do have a lot on my mind now.
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[February 17, 2010] |
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This, I read from Andrea Fonseka's website and I thought it was really good! :)
I think we can all improve ourselves in any area of our lives if we really want to. I'm not just talking about physically here. I have come to believe that anyone who is of the mentality "I'm just like that." or, "I am XX years old now, you can't expect me to change my ways" is just taking the easy way out. Its not as hard as it seems, though old habits are tough to break. I guess what we can all learn from The Biggest Loser is that change just boils down to: HOW MUCH YOU REALLY WANT IT. I look back on the past year, and am amazed at how much I've changed as a person. Often we need a catalyst for this, and I learnt this lesson from someone very close to my heart. If you really want to change something in your life, the first and most important thing is: 1. BE HONEST WITH YOURSELF. You are responsible for your own actions. Emotions are another issue - but how you handle your self, how you react to them, and how you decide you want to be - is all your own CHOICE. (Unless you have a medical condition of course, but that's another issue). You have to be honest with yourself, and realise this before you can change any flaw you have within yourself. Yes, if you're lazy, hot tempered, unkind, etc, its time to face up to it. Don't play victim and go, "I had issues growing up", or "Its not my fault, he/she/they make me this way". Yes some people have it harder than others, but at the end of the day, YOU ACTED THE WAY YOU DID and THAT'S WHY YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE. 2. WRITE DOWN THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO ACHIEVE/BE. Want to lose weight? Write it down. You want to be more liked by your peers? Write it. Want to be rich? Or want to get along better with your parents. Whatever you want in life to be better, write it down. Then follow that with what you need to do to achieve that. NO EXCUSES like writing what is stopping you, because as of now, only thing stopping you from change, is yourself. For example: a) I want to lose weight. ----> need to eat better: exercise more . b) I want to improve my personality/character ----> This one is a little more tricky as you need to look within yourself and your flaws. Here's where the honesty bit comes in. For example, if your girlfriend has told you time and time again that you're unreasonable, there could be some truth in this. Look at yourself how you'd look at someone else. If there is anything there that is holding you back, write it on your list. Follow this with why you want the change - to be a better person, to make the world a better place, to satisfy your narcissism, remember whatever it is BE HONEST WITH YOURSELF. 3. CHANGE! You can't expect results immediately. Remember that this is not a 'temporary' thing, and that you're changing your LIFE. This is who you are, you are improving yourself, and you want to be better. Take baby steps. If you're someone who has massive road-rage, the next time something bad on the road happens don't just snap, but remind yourself the reasons why you want to change that about yourself. Even if you forget, and succumb to being a swearing angry person behind the wheel, make it a point to look at that later, remind yourself why acting that way upsets you and the people around you, and why you'd like to change. As to how you change, just tell yourself that nothing will be achieved from succumbing to your weaknesses. The contrary infact tends to be the case - situations are often worsened. So focus on what would be best for you in the long-term to achieve your goal(s). The more you think in this manner, the easier it gets. I know it seems to be the case that things are easier said than done - and that is often true. But nothing will change otherwise, and whilst it may be *easier* per se to stay the same, life definitely wont be better. So as I said. It all boils down to, How Much You Want It.
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| The Travel Bug |
[October 14, 2009] |
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Haven't been penning entries for a long, long time.
Just wanted to find a corner to pen down what I truly feel, because sometimes its hard to express fully and truly how I feel.
Well, I just wanted to reflect back on what I have been doing so far. One thing will be that I'm most certainly glad that I have definitely grown into a much more strong-willed, confident, outspoken individual as compared to the past when I was shy and soft-spoken, unable to express my thoughts well and the low self-esteem that comes with not feeling good about yourself. Of course I still do sometimes, but I've realised it is much more easier when you want to do it, and you know you have the confidence and ability to do it. That makes a difference. Especially during these three years studying for my diploma, I have got to experience so many things and I loved it. I have made lovable friends in my course of study, and are still doing great with my old ones, and I hope to keep the connection and see what we all will be like ten years from now.
I have caught the travel bug within the past year because of reading online travellers' forums and communities such as CouchSurfing, Travellers' Point, Travel Advisor, Backpackers' Forum and etc. It feels amazing to read what other travelers have experienced, be it going solo, as a couple, planned travel or just spontaneously on-the-go - it definitely will be a very meaningful and breathtaking experience. I really hope I will be able to fulfil this aching need. Its like, Maslow's Hiearchy of Needs! I plan to go backpacking in early 2010 after graduation, solo hopefully. Freedom, less restrictions, more courage, making new friends more easily on the road, getting off the unbeaten path, being more open to different people, religion and cultures. Wish me all the best in persuading my mum, getting past my own thoughts and the planning process.
If anyone asks why I yearn so much to go backpacking, whether it is just because "other people are doing it so I wanna do it too", no, that's not the point. I guess everyone has their own dreams and goals. For me, this urge has defnitely grown much stronger within this past year, these few months and I really would like to do it and explore the amazing world God has created. And of course, getting off the beaten track, making new friends from all over and being wary to danger yet not too overprotective that you mistrust others (of course there's the good old common sense to rely on). Volunteering work, homestays, organic farming (WWOOF) would be great. Still doing research, planning to start up a travel research file, along with my travel journal, word of the day (I'm trying to learn more new words), memory journal of loved ones, diary-writing, quiet time and languages. Taking Korean in school soon, while trying to pen small notes on French, Spanish and etc from my friends who have attended classes before.
I really like some quotes by travelers on the road. :)
"Travelling alone doesn’t mean you don’t have friends who would travel with you. You just sometimes want to discover this planet and make new friends alone."
"I travelled alone, meaning I made my own plans, started off and came home alone, I made my own decisions on the way and only followed my own instincts and wishes. But... I wasn't really alone, not if I didn't want to, because I just met so many people on the way. And for me, that's the best part of travelling alone - you are so much more open to what happens around you. When you travel as a couple (I guess, have never done that), or with friends, you tend to be more wrapped up in each others company, your own jokes, your own language, and so on... And when I'm on the road alone I need to talk to strangers, because I can't be silent for too long. :)"
"The more you go on backpacking, the more you will love your Creator."
"I have discovered that when you are traveling alone you are NEVER alone (unless by choice). I have met so many wonderful people in the most unexpected places."
"I am one of those who never knows the direction of my journey until I have almost arrived." - Anna Louise Strong
"Thousands of tired, nerve-shaken, over-civilized people are beginning to find out going to the mountains is going home, that wilderness is a necessity." - John Muir
Sometimes to be honest, it does feel disheartening to hear what other people in my community had to say whenever I spoke about this. That I'm nuts, it will be dangerous (one of the major factors). Of course I will be doing detailed research and not let myself fall into unnecessary situations. But of course, its a big world out there and not everyone is a kind soul. I understand that people are just concerned. I appreciate it, I really do. Not being realistic is another. I guess its a perception thing, and I'll just have to try to save up more monies in the meantime.
It is kind of scary to think of what lies ahead after I graduate. I mean, I don't have a definite clue but I have a few plans in mind. Who knows what I'll do in the future? I just told myself to just work hard for these few months, and then leave the rest to God. He will have plans for his children! Faith, is the key.. But sometimes in life, it is easier said than done. Every individual has their own paths and obstacles to overcome. So there is definitely more food for thought on this.
God bless everyone.
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[August 11, 2008] |
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2008 NBA Mascot Bloopers
1. I haven't started revision because I've been going to the stall on Saturday and today (Monday), and the Olympics are too nice and I keep watching!
2. I'm going for a movie with 05 gfs tmr!
3. I've been binging on junk food like mad and my tummy is like, 9 months =.=
4. I wanna learn football, basketball, volleyball, skating, go swim, gym, play badminton! :D
5. I wanna watch Ghost Whisperer, Heroes, Taiwan and Hong Kong dramas!
6. I ... want to study asap! Duh duh duh!
7. I remember what I wanted to say!
I went to Borders book fair last Friday and I found 1 Tess Gerritsen book only :D Was too disappointed with this fact that I failed to fully realise I found 3 Harry Potter books at $4 each! Only when I got home then I realise it then I high LOL.
AIM: Find books by
- Tess Gerritsen (AHHH I should have bought the $7 The Mephisto Club during MPH book fair D:)
- Sidney Sheldon
- James Patterson
- Nicholas Sparks
- Stephen King
- Jodi Picoult
- Nora Roberts
- +++++++++++++++++! :D
(:
 
IHRO FMAH BLAW IHRO FMAH BLAW IHRO FMAH BLAW.
Oh ya, still got GEMS: Understanding Weather~
LALALALALALALALALALA! Got to study got to study got to study.
BANG!
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| BOOK FAIR!!!! |
[August 02, 2008] |
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YAY! :D :D :D :D
I didn't get to go to NLB's book clearance sale last time because of projects but there's this! :)
Projects are ending this Thursday and exams coming up next! God bring me through :) I know there are bound to be issues, but please let me grow up through all these. And let me be stronger!
Take care everyone!
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[August 01, 2008] |
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Thanks everyone for today :)
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[July 03, 2008] |
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And finally, I've got the blogging mood..
So far more than a term's been over; we're halfway through Semester 1, MST's over and now 5 projects due in 3 to 4 weeks. I really got to work harder!
All these while I've been pretty down and thinking a lot, so I really hope I think like this more often and gain more enlightenment. I think that we really need reminders now and then to let ourselves know not to take everything for granted. Thank God (: I've got to always learn from my mistakes and be a better person. Chatted to Laysing bf (: for more than 2 hours at JP just now after school and it was really nice! Thanks bf~ So now, got to pick up myself and do my best (: I have to keep my faith and believe that God will bring me through it. Try my best and leave the rest to God! For everything in life. And be more devoted.
Worked last weekend at Marina Square as a promoter for Sports! On Kids Club membership recruitment organised by the Singapore Sports Council and it was a pretty good experience overall. But some people just took advantage of us, lol. Forget it~ Saw lots of children! (: Cute. But I ate a lot, such as free milk (those kind for growing babies lol), Milo Junior and candy floss! Ate Cafe Cartel for breakfast on Saturday, Subway for lunch on Sunday and the biggest one got to be the wedding dinner we ate at 9 going 10 at night on Saturday! Was pretty embarrassed cos I wasn't supposed to be there in the first place, lol. It so happened that Jialu's parents were attending a wedding dinner nearby at Intercontinental Hotel Singapore at Bugis and when we got off work their dinner had just started, so they asked us to go eat. Haha. It was so guilty but very pleasurable. Now when I attend such events I takre more notice of how people serve so I'll not screw up at banquets next time round if I work more of those events XD and also appreciate better what these waitresses/waiters do for us. Here they change the glasses somemore. Waste water! Lol. Stayed over at Jialu's on Saturday and basically we didn't play because we were super tired and still have work the next day. Thanks Jialu's mum and dad for the dinner and letting me stay at their house! :D
I've gotten 2 of my papers for MST back, and I'm seriously very relieved to be able to score pretty adequately and for TBR and MICE CA1s also. A big PHEW. Because I thought I've flunked MST (though I've only known 2 module results) as I was nervous, unprepared and I was trembling during each hour of writing that MST week. I was seriously pretty down D: But thank God, I got through! Business Law really really took me by surprise and I was seriously wanting to cry when I realised I had that kind of marks. Got to work even harder, one paper doesn't mean anything. Got to do better for FMAH, TBR, MICE and IHRO too.
Audrey's coming back on Saturday from Australia (: Me, Xinyi, Yanling and Hamizah will be meeting her on Tuesday! :D Hope she's fine! And out with PRB (the whole set hopefully) for pool and dinner :) Got airport training and NUS hatch coming up, and also lots of projects coming up, so I gotta plan my time really well. I really hope I can do my part for projects really well and contribute significantly. Got to work hard.
Get over emo-ness and grow up in the process, Huiying!
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[May 12, 2008] |
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I've not been updating for 1234567890 days I think =X
1. School is starting, no, is already uptight with projects due within these two weeks.
2. I got emo for a period of time but ah, over it now i guess.
3. I cried in school once but I also didn't know why =.= Typical huh? STM. I guess it was every little thing that crashed down and became a breaking point.
4. I skipped my first GEMS and IHRO lecture of the year last Friday for Sakae Sushi, which brings me back to the point of losing weight and saving money? Ahhh where did that go? I'm such an ass lah!
5. I've been thinking a lot today, and this was where I got to.
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[May 12, 2008] |
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HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY :)
I LOVE YOU!
I gave my pay on Saturday to Mummy as a present. LOL. Priceless~ earned through sweat and aftermaths of aching arms and legs even up till now! But of course that's nothing compared to what a mother does for her child (: THANKYOU mum :D I asked her what she did with my present, and she said she put on under her pillow and she slept very well! (But she always sleep very well one lah LOL) But she told me that with the action and everything. Hahahahahaha.
May all mums in the world be blissful. God bless!
Love is what makes the world goes on..may us all love each other (:
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[April 18, 2008] |
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School's been on for almost a week, and I feel pretty down D: I don't know why, but the way ahead seems so hard now already. I'll try my best, and leave the rest to God (: And at the same time, to care for as much people I can (: I want to be a better person D:
And and and and, I hate my hair D: It makes me feel like staying at home and not going anywhere. Ahhhhhh, emo period, please go away!
LALALALALALALALALALALALALA.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH.
Okay, done XD
Byebye blog.
HIATUS
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[April 09, 2008] |
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Takes a deep breath*
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[April 09, 2008] |
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AHHHHH I typed a long entry about my zoo trip and the rest of my days spent and it was gone D:
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[April 03, 2008] |
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Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
Holidays. Are. Ending. D:
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| APRIL FOOL! |
[April 02, 2008] |
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Hahahahahahahaha, I'm like so having fun msn-ing the people online with all the craps (: and talking about the GEMS registration thingy which made me pretty agitated when I failed on both attempts. Although I'm on my own, at least there'll be Laysing bf (:, Alicia, Iris and Daniel and Eugene to walk (actually, rush) together with all the way to the area near FC2; June will just have to walk to her GEMS which is near the MRT (good sia!), and we can rush together there after our lecture and then go back to SB again for another lecture. Late together better than one late only. HAHA. But I'm alone for GEMS! D: But its okayyyyy.
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[March 08, 2008] |
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Ha ha. I am so not intelligent nor sweet. And neither am I full of energy and confidence. Though this is just a general test, the fact that somebody writes all these thoughts and feelings down is, well, pretty well-thought of.
Your view on yourself: You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you. The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior. Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. The seriousness of your love: Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates. Your views on education Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. The right job for you: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. How do you view success: You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying. What are you most afraid of: You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you. Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
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